I freely admit that I am a flaky member of the Church of Self-Improvement. I was a faithful member up until my mid-30’s when I no longer found the Church inspiring or…. necessary. I became tired of trying to be the best version of myself….or the version that society said I should be.
The problem I see with self-improvement is that its like a snake eating the tail. It never ends…. almost like getting on a train without an end point When we get on that self-improvement train, when do we get off?? Not only does self-improvement seem never ending… but self-improvement can be deadly… like life threatening type of deadly. Consider the recent story of Matthew Whitby who ended up taking a protein powder that contained green tea extract and cambogia… dude had two weeks to live after he started taking this product. Fortunately, he didn’t die but he did receive a liver transplant (that had Hepatitis B) and will be on medication for the rest of his life. Yikes.
I’m sure some of you reading this are thinking “I would never…” or “I don’t diet so this doesn’t apply to me” or “I don’t take protein drinks” or “Nothing processed passes these lips” but hold on….. the point isn’t the protein drink…. the point is that Mr. Whitby felt the need to bulk up, lose weight, etc and made a bad choice for a protein power. Did he choose that powder so that he could lose weight and bulk up at the same time? Why is he wanting to do that?
This brings me to my real question…. what is wrong with humans being human?? If we are born without arms, legs, fingers, queer, somewhere on the gender spectrum, different ethnicities, fat, skinny, tall, short …. why can’t we just be what we are without trying to nip, tuck, and improve all the things?? Why are we constantly searching for something outside us to “fix” us or make us happy? And why are we expecting others to do the same?
I am a pretty simple human… and I think the only way to get away from self-improvement is to listen to our bodies, our emotions…… our spirit. Does trying to bulk up and lean out feel good emotionally??? Does saying no to commitments and taking time to be by yourself feel peaceful or lonely??? Does buying another piece of furniture, clothing, and bigger house improve your long term happiness??
No one can tell you what is peaceful and joyful for you. No one knows what makes your soul smile. No one can fill any emptiness you feel….. No one. So… you know… that sucks… but also awesome at the same time because you don’t need an Oprah bank account to listen to your inner sh*t. You just have to start asking yourself the guru questions instead of the people that want to take your money and offer you temporary/fake promises. (side note – if you don’t feel well mentally or physically seek out medical help!!!!!)
For those of you at the Church of Self-Improvment, I wish you the best. I really do. I know how it feels to want that best version of myself and I respect your choice. I can’t say I won’t ever be back… However… right now…for me….. I think I’ll just be and use that self-improvement energy on enjoying what I have… my crazy messy life.
Until next time my fellow sizeHUMAN’s……
Love & Sparkles,