Can you believe we're already near the end of November? I'm not quite sure where 2019 went? Last week was an interesting week. I think I have a surge, or drop, of hormones because this past week I was HUNGRY! Nothing else had changed, my workouts were the same, but for some reason I was way hungrier than usual. I followed my plan.... that is.... until the weekend.... when I needed to be on my computer a bit more.... and..... well... my plan went to hell. I didn't take time to exercise like I wanted AND I snacked my ass off. Goldfish, Cheese its, popcorn... that's pretty much what my weekend nutrition consisted of.
In the past, I would have completely thrown in the towel on trying to make any sort of food habit changes, and go back to eating foods that were NOT good for me. Why? Because I didn't follow my nutrition plan at all this past weekend. This would have been considered a huge failure and more evidence about how broken I was as a human being.
However, not figuring this out is not an option this time. I am committed to living a healthy lifestyle I can actually enjoy. I may struggle with my plan, or meditating, or consistent exercise, but I am committed to keep searching and trying until I find something that works for me.
Keeping all this in mind, I've gone back to the drawing board to modify my current wellness plan. I was keeping track of my calories. I kept my range well above 2000 calories, focused on adding more fruits and veggies, and tried to make 80% of my choices real food AND plant-based. I also have a workout program where I lift four times a week and walk five times a week. I top all this all with daily meditation, journaling and self-developmental podcast/books/etc.
Now, its time to throw a wrench in my wellness master plan. I think I need to step away from one of my favorite vices..... calorie tracking.
Calorie tracking makes me feel safe. If I track all my food, I feel like I'll have a way to look back and see what worked and what didn't. I do think tracking calories can, possibly, maybe help one figure out how food can affect their body. My personal issue with calorie tracking is that it keeps me a step away from relying on hunger cues.
If I want to reach ultimate wellness awesomeness, I want to be able to eat out, go on vacation, and travel without the worry of trying to count calories. Calorie counting also sets me up for an all or nothing attitude concerning my health. I'm either "on" plan by counting calories or "off" plan by not counting calories and possibly, more than likely, bingeing.
So where do I go from here?
I'm going to try an experiment. Until December 1st, I'm going to continue to keep a food journal but let the calorie counting go. Maybe I'm setting myself up for failure because Thanksgiving is breathing down our necks, but I wonder if this isn't the perfect time because if I'm following my hunger cues (and stopping when full) then maybe I won't binge on Thanksgiving and feel terrible most of the day.
Letting go of calorie counting bothers me a lot more than I thought it would. I worry that it will affect my recent progress on lowering my blood pressure, or that I won't be able to fit into my clothes (even spandex have a limit). So here we go.... making my daily food/nutrition plan, still lifting all the heavy things, walking all over the county, and meditating badly.